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Yasmin Chopin's avatar

Jennifer, thank you for sharing your personal experience of Central Park. As you recount these moments in time, I'm taken back to the days when Covid-19 altered our lives dramatically. And, to think that your relationship blossomed during the restrictions... well, it's heartwarming for sure.

And, thank you for being my collaborative buddy for this project. It's been very rewarding to write with you, and produce two posts about Central Park, each filled with memories and love.

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Sandra Wells's avatar

Jennifer and Yasmin...thank you. What a beautiful and inspiring collaboration. I'm going to take a risk and add what I just wrote about another NY park at another time...

The Red Coal

It is October 6. Thirty out of eighty students gather in a loft just belong Washington Square Park. The air, still dense. The smell sweet yet charred. Unfamiliar. The streets too quiet.

We have gathered to write with our teacher, Natalie Goldberg.

Natalie says, “Begin with…This much I do remember…Go…ten minutes.”

Natalie says, “Tell me about a street you lived on…Go...ten minutes.”

Natalie says, “Let’s do a RECALL from last time…”

Natalie says, “Write about what brings you joy…Go…ten minutes.”

We sit meditation. We write. We read aloud. We do Zen walking…slow, slow, slower…then fast, fast, faster.

We “crack open structure” by rearranging gray folding chairs, zafus and zabutons.

Neat, tidy rows disappear, replaced by random, yet comforting disorder. Everything seems difficult. Pens drag across paper.

Our writing is muffled, brittle, lifeless, cold. We know it. We trust the practice and wait.

Natalie says. ”Keep your hand moving; don’t cross out; be specific—not the flower in the window, the GARDENIA—ignore spelling and punctuation; you’re free to write the worst trash in America.”

Outside, the sky is an unnerving shade of gray. The windows are open. It’s the in between of summer and fall. Humid. No breeze. Some leaves are strangely brown.

Natalie says, “Get up. Follow me.”

She picks up the bell.

We follow. Single file down the stairwell, out the door. Slowly. Mindfully. Each step a prayer to a shattered world.

We move in silence. We move as one body.

We cut a diagonal across the mostly empty Washington Square Park.

People join us, wordless.

The muffled hum of the park settles.

We return to the loft.

Natalie reads The Red Coal by Gerald Stern.

It begins, “I sit in my blue chair trying to remember…before the burning coal entered my life.”

His ordinary statement captures us—we’re breathless. That coal burns our hands, our tongues, our bellies. Some of us swallow it whole, our hair is singed, and suddenly we’re on fire.

Natalie says, “What is the red coal in your life? Go. Ten minutes.”

We write frantically. Handwriting becomes large and loopy, indecipherable on the page, filled with urgency. We’re awake at last—as though hundreds of layers of fine gauze covering our eyes smolder on the floor.

We read; we cry, we laugh, we re-member. The practice restores, the poem revives us.

Natalie reminds us of Katagiri Roshi’s injunctions—“don’t be tossed away and continue under all circumstances.”

In the face of 9/11 we’ve tossed ourselves away.

And now, The Red Coal brings us back to life.

More than this, our humble teacher, has drawn on her deep practice and dharma wisdom to ride the rugged edge of our despair without any effort to change it. To continue under these circumstances, to demonstrate the power of practice.

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